vendredi 3 janvier 2014

Unexpected Love

Dear Friend,
It's been centuries since my last blog, almost one year (posted the last one on the 20th of February 2013). I can still recall my surprise of being in the Year 2013 on the day I wrote that blog. And look at us now! It's already 2014 - twenty fourteen - MMXIV . Goodness gracious. Anyways, it's been a long time since I haven't talked to you my friend, and know that I have missed you a lot. Please do accept my apologies for not having written to you as much often as I should have. 

This past year has been a rough and tough one, but I'm very much thankful for 2013 because it was full of victories, joy, smile, and all the good things. And one of those "good things" that struck me the most, is the way I found love. It's like the last thing I'd expect to happen to me. But in some way, it did happen. 

I met her one beautiful October sunday, when she came at our church. She blew me away the first time I saw her. It was like all I could see was her. Yeah I know it kinda sounds like in the movies, but it did happen that way (okay, I'm a bit exaggerating! Hahaha). First time we talked, our "Hi/Hellos" were sent at the exact same time. And we laughed at the coincidence of our timing. But wait, coincidence? I think not. Hahaha. Since then, it's just a beautiful story that has begun. I found in her a friend I could laugh with, share my thoughts to, and enjoy every moment we spend together. I found in her what seemed to be the things that have been missing in my life. Perhaps, I found what I needed in her.

She's the kind of girl who is very relaxed, stress-free, always smiling, talkative person, very open. And yet when you get to know her up close, you discover a part (that in fact all of us hide) that is more personal, emotionally-driven. I have neglected a lot in describing her, but God knows what and how she is to me. And these are all the things that drew me closer to her, that got me attracted to her. These are the varieties of things that made me....fall in love with her. She got the thang that suddenly made my heart beat. Faster. And faster. Even faster. 

People may talk and say ish about us, but it doesn't matter to me at all, because what counts is the way I feel for her and the way we found happiness in being together. She's actually the best thing that had happened to me on the Year 2013. And therefore, I'm very much looking forward to seeing and living new adventures with her. Exciting moments to discover, experiences to be unfolded before us, and love to be tasted and lived over and over. The unexpected is very much expected this year. 

Yours truly,
J. Powers 

mercredi 20 février 2013

Do Emotions Have To Make Sense?

Oh well... Hello there. 20th of February 2013. two-thousand-thirteen. Already? Time flies by at such a speed. What am I going to talk about tonight. I've got so many things on my mind, yet it feels like I have nothing to say. Thoughts, ideas, complaints, questions, all sort of things, yet I do not know how to put it in words. Or if it's even worth it putting them into words. But sigh, let us try.

There are times in life where out of the void, I feel empty. I feel wounded without ever being hit or struck. I feel left behind, although nobody ever left. It feels like there's something missing. That the world has gone by and I'm still stuck here. I do not know which emotions should be expressed. What is right and what is wrong. Everything goes nuts. Dear reader, don't you feel like that at some point too?

Let's face the bloody reality : every day is not always meant to be full of rainbows and butterflies. But how can we deal with that? How can we go through days of thunder and rain? Where can we find this small little spot of sunshine amidst a huge gigantic heavy storm? 

Argh, never mind. I know this doesn't make sense at all. Like really not. But bugger it, do emotions have to make sense? 

J. Powers

lundi 31 décembre 2012

What are your resolutions?

Dear friend,
Happy new year to the other half of the world! And a patient wait to all of us here holding on for it to come. So for the coming year 2013, have you already settled and written down your resolutions? I haven't yet. And I'm not even quite sure if, first off, I have fully accomplished those of this year. But one thing about the next year which is real close is to not expect anything from ourselves. Because expectations will always fail us, and trust me it will now or then. My only wish for 2013 is for it to be an adventure. 

You know a whole year is like a roller-coaster. It has its ups and downs, and it also has twists and loops. It can look very scary from the outside, but once you're on it you can't back out. You gotta need a lot of courage and you know, just live in the moment. In my humble opinion, it's good and wise to set a few challenges and changes in your life for this coming year, but don't put too much pressure on yourself. Just let things fall into place. Plan your thang and let God do the accomplishment. There are gonna be a lot of surprises. Things you haven't expected. Things that weren't included in your "list". 

At times you may be disappointed and you be like things aren't going the way I thought it would have been. Oh boy, I can tell you there are gonna be downs. But it's not a reason for you to give up just yet. As a matter of fact, just like in a ride, throw your hands up through the highs and lows and bring yourself together. Just enjoy the 365 days, 8760 hours, 525'600 minutes and 31'536'000 seconds of this year 2013 with a whole lotta courage and faith. Leave everything in the palm of His hand, and thank him for each and every day that will come by. 

My resolution for this year is to have enough strength and faith to enjoy this year's adventure. And to let God do the makeover in whatever aspect of my life. Happy new year friend!

Yours truly,
J. Powers

vendredi 21 décembre 2012

Au Jour Le Jour.

Dear reader,
It's been a long time since I haven't written, so here I am once again. 'Tis the season to be jolly ain't it? Christmas, New Year, and everything.. But is it really a merry season? I hear a whole lotta people bragging about how christmas is so stressful, being under pressure buying gifts, party organisation, going through loads of people shopping gifts in the mall, talking about being broke as hell just right after the festivities, and so on and so forth. For students like me, we just had our midterm exams, which means a lot of preparation, revision, procrastination, many (all of 'em) nights without no sleep, early bird at school, you name it. Cherry on top. 

Sometimes I just ask myself, why don't we just cut all the fuss out, sit back and relax? We are constantly running after something. After this, after that. Stressing about the time left yet still got a lot to do. I know some people just want this season to end because they can't bear that kinda fuss. And I'm one of those.
But now, come to think of it, let's take a break. Let's sink into our own inner world and find peace. Forget about what's happening around, what people say, what people think, what people expect. Just go meet the soul that is contained in that body of yours.

People have been talking lately about this "end of the world" trending topic. You gotta be dumb to believe such a thing. Of course we all know it won't occur, wait let me correct, it hasn't occurred. But imagine if it really would have happened? Let's say that you have but 21 days to live. How would you use those 504 hours left? Would you spend them running around stressing, having to tick those things you wrote on your to-do-list? You know just sit back and enjoy every minute of the day God has given you, because that moment won't ever happen again. Life doesn't come with a play/pause/rewind/fast forward built-in. It goes on and you won't be able to come back. So just live life to the fullest, without ever having to race with time, et vis au jour le jour. Carpe Diem. 

Just do me a favor, cut the stress out, and just put a smile on that face, seek your soul and find peace in the midst of that storm, and remember the real essence of the season, that Christ is born for you to be free from all those chains.

Yours truly,
J. Powers

vendredi 19 octobre 2012

The Pursuit Of A Dream

Dear Reader,

Today is the 19th of October, the 10th month of 2012. This week was a heck of a heavy one. Like school and exams and everything. You know that feeling when you just had 9 hours straight of college, boring and incomprehensible classes. And just when you get home you have ahead of you hours of revision, procrastination and such. Like yes teachers, we do not have a life aside from school and studies. [insert sarcasm laugh here]

Sometimes I get a feeling like I just want an escapade. I want to get rid of this mundane, redundant, repetitive routine. Yes, that was a pleonasm. But don't you get that feeling too? Like you want to travel and forget everything, and start anew. See new things, discover and learn from a different point of view. When I think of it, there's far more better in life to be done. But these are all just dreams and we are still here, stuck into reality.

When will we one day have the freedom to actually not just dream but realize those dreams. Dreams.. Something that can be a sweet thought to the mind, but can seem so unreachable. A dream or an ambition can seem so distant, like the moon. Let's have that for instance, the moon. Something that we've seen from planet earth since billions of years. Who would've thought that someday we would reach it. I can imagine the feeling Armstrong had when he first stepped on the moon. Somehow, that's the feeling you have when you finally achieve that dream. It took them years and years before finally stepping on the moon. But they believed. 

And I guess for the time being, that's what we should do. Believe. Dreams aren't unreachable after all, it just takes time and perseverance and willingness to achieve that dream. Someday we'll get it, someday our ambition, our dream is going to be our reality. Just don't lose hope. Trust and persevere.

Yours truly,
J. Powers

vendredi 5 octobre 2012

Unforgettable, that's what it is.

Dear Reader,

I hope you had a great week and a wonderful friday. Today I've seen the finale episode of the series I've been watching for almost three months. It's a show presented by GMA called One True Love.

A beautiful story that tells us that, throughout every trial and against all odds, love has no bound. It is limitless. But that is only if it's genuine love. It also shows us that if you truly love a person, you would do anything at all cost to keep that love you have.

But what would you do if the person you love the most is dying? What if that person has only a few months left to live? As we always hear "time is gold". Yes, time is precious and every moment spent with the person your heart has chosen to love should be cherished. Life can be taken away at any time, we never know what the future has in store. So do not take for granted someone that is real close to your heart.

Sometimes in life, we tend to forget the real worth of people so we neglect them carelessly. But we only know the real value of someone when they're absent. That's because you will miss the things they usually do, their voice, their laugh, and even their flaws and imperfectness. When they're gone you will want every single thing of those back and therefore you realize their real value.

That is why you should do everything to make the person you love happy. And always remind her how much you love her and what is her value, because one day these could all be memories you will just look back and remember.

Life is like a huge photo album. You will live each moment only once, and then it never happens again. But then it stays on your mind and freezes like a picture. As the time goes by, you gradually collect these pictures in your head and you look at it. Pictures are meant to remind you of the beautiful memories you've had. So collect as many as you can, and do not leave things undone.

As long as there's still time, use it wisefully to give love as much as you can, don't let a single smile slip away, and make every heartbeat worth it for the person you love and for yourself. Do not live with full of regrets, because it's unhealthy. Make every moment count and live the genuine, one true love with the person you have chosen to love. Unforgettable, that's what it is.

Yours truly,
J. Powers

lundi 1 octobre 2012

She Was My Bestfriend

Dear Reader,

Today is the 1st of October. Happy October! The blog for this day is not going to be about any philosophical discussion or anything. It's just about me, and putting into words what I feel. I guess, I can say that I'm one guy that really doesn't play with love. Yes, love is a serious matter and you should not play around with it. 

Sometimes we think that love instantly comes when you see a person. You, then, like the person by the looks and the "appeal". It sounds so stereotypical, you see it on TV, movies, you read it on magazines, you hear it on the music you listen. But I don't think it happens likewise. You don't fall in love with a person, by the appearance, it's so much more than that. For me, it didn't happen like that. 

I fell in love with my bestfriend.
And it was the best of things that happened to me. I knew her since we were kids but she became my bestfriend around our early teenage years. She was one person who stood out among anybody else. She was the bestfriend. We would hang out together, talk through the phone for hours (litterally), do crazy stuff together. When I was with her, it's almost as if my problems flew away. I knew nothing but me, her and the quality time we spent together. We even told each other our secrets, big or little it may be we would tell it to each other. But there was this one thing I couldn't tell her. My feelings for her.
I fell in love with her, everything about her. I loved the way she was. Her smile, her inner and outer beauty, and even her flaws. The way she would hug me as well and make me feel good when I was down. Every little thing. I couldn't and didn't want to tell this to her fearing that I might be rejected. I just wanted to keep it for myself and just feel the bright and warm colors of our sweet friendship. Somehow, I thought that I knew that there was a possibility between both of us. But I guess that was where I was wrong. I should've not hidden it and I should've not expected too much.

Then the day came, when she knew about it. She was devastated and I was too. Because I knew that everything would come to an end. And it did come to an end. She didn't want to see me anymore, or even talk to me. It was like a restraining order. She was the first girl to whom I shed tears. I don't want to tell you the whole story, but to sum it up and to make it very short, that is how it looked like if you had to make a sneak peak about it.

Sigh. Sometimes, I ask myself, why did it have to happen like that? Maybe I was the jerk in the story. Maybe it wasn't the right time at the right place. But I guess, in every kind of situation you go through, whether it's good or bad, you learn something out of it. The only thing that breaks my heart is that before having any sort of feelings for her, she was my bestfriend. And now, after Lord knows how many years of friendship, we happen to be total strangers to each other. But I can't do much about it because that's how it's supposed to be I reckon, and we don't choose our destiny. 

Some people tell me to get a grip and move on, but I guess I never will. Trying to forget her is like trying to remember someone you've never known. I won't forget her, but now, I'm setting her free. And all I can hope for is her happiness and inner peace. I also hope that someday she will find the one guy that will make her complete. Something, I guess I couldn't give her. I want you to be free...

J. Powers

PS: This month's your birthday, advanced happy birthday.